I should learn to make decisions of my own to make myself happy instead of making others happy. In the end, what do I get? Pretend I am okay with it and smile even if I am not happy and nobody knows it. No one I can talk to no one I can actually spill it out to. No one but you. Why? I screwed up. I took too long time. Too long till it was too late when I saw it.

I have to stop this. I need to.

Even if nobody knows the reasons behind everything I do or say, I don't mind. I can't expect everyone to know why, how, or what. All I can do is have faith in myself and not to repeat the same mistakes. Even if they ended up hating me, I deserve it because I simply don't open up my histories to people. No, I won't open up.

Probably, some things are better left unsaid. Or better yet, not to argue back with someone else's points.

Want to move on from past but I can't,

Cause I don't even want to wake up from my dream.

Too good, yet too fake.

What a good lie to myself.

생일 축하해..

행복하십시오..

Recently, I am feeling even more anguish, frustrated, and emotional about almost anything. I needed to shout and I can't be able to keep everything in my head. I don't even know how to word them, don't even know how to let them out. So, they are just there. Just in my head, hiding, caving into self.

Not good. Not good at all.

Eric Suen - 我不爱你了

雨天让后好几个阴天

怎么那些云都像她脸

所以多看一眼

怕梦飞远

心 有时候喜欢被骗

已经没有了 还在快乐的记念

她在做什么

谁得甜不甜

现在陪在谁身边

我不爱你了

如果这样说你会好过一点

假装习惯风平冷静的世界

那也没什么

也许是你 太特别

我不爱你了

原来以为可以骗得过昨天

这样反而让我知道多想念

不管过多久

心还停在 那一年

我太爱你了

说不爱你是我就最后的防线

以为就把伤痛都交给时间

请你好好的

是我唯一的心愿

我不爱你

是最后的防线

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