I.A.M.A.S.P.O.I.L.T.K.I.D.

Sometimes I just do not understand what is wrong with them. I tried making things easier, better, more perfect, but in the end, nobody wants to follow it. And when I followed what they want and I screwed it up, I get scolded by them. It is not like I never told them my better idea that will not make a big fuss. I did told you all that I wanted that because it is better and blablabla and did you all listen???? I've said before if I blow it, DON'T find me and scold me. But what happened? I got scolded for the thing when I blew it. What is the point? Isn't it better if you all just let me have that thing before hand and I can even save your money? What is making so hard for you to say YES? Not like you spent very little before this. Getting that a little extra is not comparable than what you got. You spent over the limit but I won't. You may say I am a spoilt kid trying to use dad's money like water. You may say I am getting worse. You may say I am carefree. You may say I am rebellious. You may say I am a pest. I DON'T CARE.

I just plan a better thing for me. IS IT WRONG??????????????????? I just plan a better thing that makes everyone's life easier. IS IT WRONG????????? Even if I have no stress from my work, you all give me stress!!!!! Making so much fuss that I do not even want to have!! Since when will I have any suggestions made by myself??? I have grown up!!!! At least I am not as bad tempered as you! At least I am more tolerate than you! I look like I don't know how to control but I DO KNOW. Sometimes, not all things can be shown from me that I can do. Not like you know me well. None of you know me well AT ALL. Even when you all say you know me very well, I don't think so. You all never try to know me. What the hell? Just dump me aside then !!!

I did not get what I wanted since years ago from you all and that is so important for a kid. Without it, the kid goes hey-wire. And that kid is me. And the thing I have always wanted is happiness. Don't you all realize how important your role is? I learn so many things by myself. I experienced so many things cause of you all. And I am just trying to make things right but NOBODY ever listen to this girl's voice because you all treat me as a kid that knows nothing and invisible!!!!!!!!! Ever thought what I will feel?? You ask me the same question but do you ever though what I will feel for years??????????????????????????????

I AM DONE WITH ALL OF YOUR DEEDS. LET ME MAKE ME DECISIONS!!!! AT LEAST SOME OF IT!!!!!