It has been three years

2011,
The heartache and tears that were there with me everyday. Suicidal.

2012,
Tried to move on and did not think things through. It was not mine, was not his. Again, only heartache and tears were willing to be my friend.

2013,
Realised it was stupid for me to stop my life there. Woke up from horrible nightmares, I change. I don't need heartache and tears to be with me everyday.

2014,
Move on because I need to move forward as time moves. There are no reasons for tears to greet me. Even if I will not find or have what I love or who I love to have, I rather will not because that kind of love is suicidal.

“期待让人越来越疲惫”。。。可是过了一段时间后， 还是要往前走。

“一个人擦泪， 一个人好累” 。。。还会有怎样？ 还不是 需要活下去。

“怎样的我能让你跟想念”？？？ 废话， 应该都忘了我吧。

“被爱的人不用道歉”。。。 永远 默默的爱。。

ISWAK 的歌， 带了我回到从前。。

真怀念。。

那些感觉 还在。。

I should learn to make decisions of my own to make myself happy instead of making others happy. In the end, what do I get? Pretend I am okay with it and smile even if I am not happy and nobody knows it. No one I can talk to no one I can actually spill it out to. No one but you. Why? I screwed up. I took too long time. Too long till it was too late when I saw it.

I have to stop this. I need to.

Even if nobody knows the reasons behind everything I do or say, I don't mind. I can't expect everyone to know why, how, or what. All I can do is have faith in myself and not to repeat the same mistakes. Even if they ended up hating me, I deserve it because I simply don't open up my histories to people. No, I won't open up.

Probably, some things are better left unsaid. Or better yet, not to argue back with someone else's points.

Want to move on from past but I can't,

Cause I don't even want to wake up from my dream.

Too good, yet too fake.

What a good lie to myself.

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