In my mind, always appearing:

"I should have..."

"What if.."

"Why didn't I..."

"Why didn't he..."

And then I say out loud, "Don't regret..no regrets. Be happy even if you're not. Keep the mask on. You'll be fine."

Family..always a stressor.

Money..adds on to it.

Family + money....I'm walking like a drunkie.

This is just unfair.

I am the one who gets the suffer and others have to be happy for me agreeing.

What else do they want to take away from me?

Birthday's coming. Will you message me?

Trying not to think. Trying to ignore the thoughts.

Trying..