The days after SPM is getting bored and bored each day. Plus, when you can't go out freely and come home without hearing lecture from the professor in the house. I'm getting very bored with my life. Friends are going off to college, work soon but I can't spend time with them more. More like, we didn't hang out at all? Haih.. I'm hoping to go to Australia soon. But, I want to spend time with them before I go cause I know I won't be able to meet them often.

What am I suppose to do now? Even when I watch dramas, movies, my dad lecture me so much. I didn't exercise. I feel very tired when I do so. My knees hurt. My back hurts. I want to play badminton. I want to play tennis. I want to run. I want to jump. I want to stretch. I can't. If I am able to do all these things, I won't be so bored.

Well, I meet Tian Hua very often now. Almost everyday. The times I spend with him weren't that bored but after meeting him, I will have nothing to do.

I haven't been to Lake Garden in a very long time already. I feel like going there for a walk. Will my dad let? I guess he will say "House already got treadmill, why want go there?" Haih. Just for a WALK not run or something. I need fresh air, release my boredness, calm myself by looking at those beautiful tress,grass and those naughty little monkeys walking on the wires.

Hmm. I guess I'm just gonna sit in front of the computer, tv, piano today :)

Merry Christmas

Thought I won't be able to write a blog today cause I just wrote one. But, I need to spill out my feelings. God damn, its Christmas. MERRY christmas. Suppose to be a very MERRY day but my day turn out to be very "MERRY".

First Story

I thought I can watch "The Treasure Hunter" but I couldn't. Why? Dad doesn't allow me anymore. COME ON!! A promise is a promise. Should keep it and just let me go. Not change the plan last minute. Yesterday we were suppose to go Ipoh for dinner and heck no we didn't. Boring christmas eve and christmas day. Then at last my dad let me go for the movie but this morning he said NO. WHAT THE HELL!!!! I can't go karaoke, can't go for movie, can't go out with friends, can't go out with those kids. What I want to do then? Sit at home watch tv and get scolding from dad. Fine. No tv then. No computer then. Sleep the whole christmas day.

Second Story

Suddenly I saw him online. I straight away click it. I thought he blocked me. How come I still can see him online? But, when I click him, he straight away off. I'm confuse now. Did he really block me or just put appear offline? I want to talk or chat with him. Never again. People might think that I am happy he and I are not friends. Wrong. I am NOT happy at all. From outside, I might look happy cause i fake those laughters, those words, those smile. How can I be happy by losing a best friend? Although I have boyfriend, but a boyfriend and best friend is totally different. Those feelings are different. You can't compare a boyfriend and a best friend. Well, a promise is a promise. Don't ever break the chain.

Third Story

Sigh. No Jay Chou for today. No Tian Hua for today. Nobody to hang out with. No Jerusha for today. No Scott for today :(

Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone. I'm 100% sure that my friends are having a blast today. Smile :)

MONEY MONEY MONEY

Wonder what are they for. Why are people so obsessed with money? What does it give us? What does it do to us that can make us so obsessed with it? I don't really understand why people love money especially the government, businessman, politicians, doctors, and those high post workers. But there are some normal human beings like me who really love money. Even the one on the street wearing those thorn clothes love money a lot. Jobless person love it too.

Does money really bring happiness to anybody? Me, being in a moderate family, can't really feel much happiness. I understand that we need money to study,to buy useful things, accessories, and so on. People work to earn money for their living,for their family. Well, some of the family will be happy when they have lots of money. But not to all. I don't come from a family that is full with happiness. A person gets very self-centered when they have a chance to get money. They can even do anything for it. Gamble, bribery, cheating, stealing, sell their own children's life, borrow money from AH LONG. Why on earth they want to do all these? Don't they have better things to do that can get money in a clean good innocent way?

To the people that gamble - Why do you want to do such thing? What's the advantage of it? What if you lose all the money that you gamble? Will you be happy bout it? No right? Don't gamble cause you're gambling your life away. Find job to earn some money. Not just sit down at home and wait for the money to fall from the sky. God won't help you at all if you ain't getting your ass out there to work for it.

Bribery - Ministry of education.Wow,sounds powerful for the students. We learn moral "Jangan amalkan amalan rasuah. Cegah Rasuah. Konsep Bersih Cekap Amanah" . Why do we have to learn not to do that when the government itself does that? It doesn't make sense at all. They teach us to be a good person in future. Even the God says so. Kalau tidak, kita akan kena balasan buruk dari Tuhan. But, we still do such things especially the government. What a good example. ooppsss gonna go ISA if they read this. But what to do? Its the fact right? Students are thought not to bribe but the government servants aren't showing the good example forthe students. So, in the future, people will sill do that. Whats's the point of learning nilai amanah anyway? Wel, my dad said people bribe so that you can get good future. Ya...whatever. Humans will not get any further if they don't listen to God's commands.

Cheating, stealing - Now we see some teenagers even little children steal food, money cheat the richer people for MONEY. Some of them were asked to do it by their own parents. We shall clap hands for those parents for teaching good things to their kids. Come one! You are spoiling their future! Work and don't risk your children's life!

Money don't really give someone everything. Money isn't that important in some ways. Money isn't the thing that humans need. Don't be too selfish and make someone in great mental disorder just for money. Money brings disasters.

FAKERS.

ooh..they are the devils on earth.dont ever judge a book by its cover.nono.they're are pretty,handsome,cute and so on but when you look into the heart..ouch..fire!!!!

yeah i know a lot of fakers.most of them fake to be so damn angelic and good to you but when you turn away,they will be doing some kind of faces expression - tongue's out / vomitting / swearing.when they need things they will be like this :
"(name - more like dragging in a pity way) can you ppwweeeaasseeeee help me??" and you can see their eyes are so round and watery like an innocent little puppy wanting to play with you.
so of course the fella will say "of course.anything?" gladfully.when you finished helping them,days later..
"eh..you know a (name) very blablablablablablablabla - backstabbing"
and the worst part is that they backstab to your another friend and the words will spread like sound wave.you cant see you cant feel you cant touch.in the end it reaches your 2 pixie ears.then what will you do?confront?argue?ignore?
let me tell you something..confront isnt a good way.argue aint a good way too.ignore..yea.if ignore is the best way.trust me.when you ignore,you'll be braver and you'll stay away from them from time to time.whats the fun of backstabbing anyway?i dont mean that i dont backstab people. i do.everyone does that i belive.but you wont know.those fakers cant stop backstabbing.they backstab till the max!well,people party till the max.but they BACKSTAB till the max.especially when you are in a group.why do you want to backstab someone that is in your group?then why choose them as your group member or even CLOSE friends?or BABES.ya..babes..some of them say "going out with my babes" just to attract people (mostly the guys) so taht people will be "oh..you got babes...oh..thats so cool..aahhhh.." - urhh..
these are call fakers.true FAKERS that you can find in this world on this earth.
if you choose them as your close friends,true friends or whatever, dont backstab can one day they'll know and of course you will end up named as "FAKERS" by me :) *evil smile*

ps : i dont love fakers, i LAUGH them..

Hello bloggie !
This is my very 1st time having a real blog.Not to say the old blog is not real just that its a blog that is under friendster.So now i have a real blog under blogspot.com :)
Thought of having this blog after my SPM but well, something changed my mind so here i am writing a blog.
My blog might be boring at 1st.I might need to record down almost all my memories here?haha
Blog is suppose to be like a diary for us where we keep all the happenings in our life.Writing down your good+bad feelings here.Maybe this is the reason why im writing blog :)
Will update my blog with better stuffs (not like this lame one.haha) :)
*cheers* *winks*