Somebody to Love

Maybe some of you out there will think "Glee??" when you guys see the title but I'm not gonna talk about Glee as I never watch it before. The song is just in my head so I have nothing else to put as my title.

So, yeah!!! I'm still alive!! After 2 weeks in college! Yeah!!! -.-'

Well, it is not THAT bad but it is still BAD. Although my days are getting better in classes and blah blah blah. Met quite a lot of people and had fun talking and correcting each languages. Yea man. CORRECTing EACH languageS. Most of my friends are from China and their english aren't that good but we are okay as my mandarin sucks too so we are all equal. We help each other you see? Aawww such a wonderful people. It's hard though to interpret what they are trying to tell me in English. I will have to stare at a spot and think REAAAALLLLLLLYYYYYY hard to get the point. And I will go "YEA YEA YEA" or "Dui dui dui (means correct in mandarin) " or "Wo dong / ming bai (means understand in mandarin) " Then, we laugh and said okay. Hmm....... what a conversation~ It's not that I am laughing at them or look down on them, I am just SHARING my conversations with the China people :)

It's getting seriously cold over here. I'm suppose to shower but I am here writing my blog. Why? Cause, I feel like it. And Why?? Cause, hmm I dont know how to put in words.

Music class is very very fun. Sometimes. I bet most of you dont know I am singing in the choir?? Soprano??? HAHAHAHAHAH Yes I am in the choir singing soprano. Very not good. I know. Maybe some of you will go "Whaat??????????? Seriously??? Tang FOng???? Singing???? Soprano????? HUhhh????????????? That doesnt make any sense!!!"
What the hell, I am in the soprano which I dont like AT ALL!!! The highest key I can reach is D but now you want me to hit the note E and F??????? OH MY GOSH! This is crazy!! No wonder my throat is feeling so itchy now. But anyway, it's fun! It will be more fun when we get to see Mr. Smith does his funny face to reach the high note and the way he stamp his feet, say oh my god with his hand covering his mouth, doing some magic fingers. Obviously nobody laughs out loud, we talk after the class and we were like "Did you see how he react just now?? Its so funny like how he goes "AH!!NO!!" you know??" Bad students talk about teacher. Not good.

I dont want to talk about other subjects. THey are just BORING except my Eng and Maths teacher. Oh yea~ My maths teacher is soooooooooo funny. He always try to make fun of his OWN teaching just to attract our attention. He's way too fun. And my eng teacher, he is always saying "Aiyah!" and he is Ang moh! Very surprising for us when he said aiyah. Its really amazing when you see ang moh tries to speak our language / accent.

Conclusion, nice~~~ Thats all I can say about my college. They are full of fun :) but of course, gotto study right? Hmmmm

Go Go Go Go!! *encouraging myself*

Differences of Australia and Malaysia

Okay yea. I'm in Australia (OZ). Melbourne to be exact. And I'm going to write out some obvious differences between Melbourne and Taiping.

Melbourne, Australia

1. You can wear snow cap, hat, caps, hoodies, 3 layers of clothes, boots, scarfs, leggings, people will not stare at you and say you're crazy.
2. The toilet is so clean and dry that you can even pick the tissue that is on the floor and it does not stink. AT ALL.
3. You can wear as sexy as you want and people will not stare at you.
4. You can jog whenever and wherever you want without worrying much about people grabbing you and rape you.
5. You can put your handbags on the floor when you are at the restaurant because nobody's going to take it.
6. You can put your bicycles anywhere you want but the chances of getting stolen is less.
7. You don't have to worry about eating or walking alone like an emo kid. People will not stare.
8. When you are at shops or restaurants, even if you are looking only, the workers will ask "Hello how are you? Need any help?" with a smile :)

Taiping, Malaysia

1. If you wear snow cap, hat, caps, hoodies, at least 2 layers of clothes, boots, scarfs, leggings, people will stare at you and say you're insane. Panas la dei..
2. The toilet is so dirty and wet and stinky that your pee doesn't even want to flow out.
3. You can wear as sexy as you want but you will be raped a second after you step out of your house.
4. You can jog and run and walk whenever wherever you want with people following you at the back grabbing you or rape you or kill you.
5. You can put you handbags on the floor. Which means you are giving your stuffs to strange people for FREE.
6. You cannot put your bicycles wherever you want or else it will go missing the minute you walk away.
7. You will have to worry about people staring at you when you are eating or walking alone like an emo kid. People say you have mental problem.
8. When you are at shops or restaurants, nobody greets you eventhough you ask for a service.

So, these are some of the differences that I have in my mind for now. Will add it when it comes into my mind.

Well, Melbourne, so far so good except for my tummy. Tummy isn't feeling good for 3 days already. Not good. NOT good :( I don't even know whether I am hungry or not. Even if I am hungry, my tummy does not want to eat. *cry*

Will update my blog sooner or later :) Goody night !

S-P-I-D-E-R

I am a human bigger than any spiders on earth - obviously - but I am afraid of them as I have bad experience with them before this. So, whenever I see one, no matter what size are they in, I will RUN and scream PAPA!!!! or I will stare at it and think what I should do and I will grab any solid stuffs or tissue and PIAK!!! them.

Not gonna talk about this but I am gonna boast about :

I KILLED A SPIDER WITH MY OWN BARE HAND!!!!!!!

Damn! I am so proud of myself! Actually, it wasn't an intention to kill it with BARE hand without any "weapons" with me. I was in the car and its parked perfectly fine in the porch. And, I saw an insect on my window - never thought it is a spider - so I just PIAK!! the insect. Then, when I look at my palm and saw the insect I went SPIDER!!!!!! Then I quickly rub my hand with a cloth. Flashback, "Did I just kill a spider with my hand?????"

YEAH!!! I DID!!! *ego face* Brothers! Papa! Look! I am so daring!!!

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKKA So happy~ But of course, I won't do that anymore. heh :)

ps : its actually a very small tiny miny spider. lol

Craving for Puma sneakers ! *not food*

12th of June, my 3rd brother will be coming back home. WEEEE~~~ No more loneliness, no more speaking to myself at home, no more singing alone, no more eating lunch and breaky alone. *peace*

This is a silver Puma sneakers and I want it so badly that I don't know where to get them. My dad will say a simple NO for me wanting to buy this sneakers. Because, he wants me to be more feminine which I am trying to be one for years. But hey, I don't have to be feminine the whole time right? Too bad, I have a boy in me :D

I WANT THE SHOE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

W.H.I.M.P.E.R

I keep saying "I am bored" , "So bored" and sentences that show I am bored. Okay. What a whimper I am. Although I am watching TV, alone, I still say "I am bored" to someone. And, starts comparing the moments when he is being alone. So, I shall say I am having a lot of funs :)

I am bored because whenever it's the advertisements, they did not attract me, so I am bored. Plus, I want to talk to MR. Pot Belly but he is not really free. Thus, I am bored. I feel restless and lazy. Conclusion, I am bored. I have nothing better else to do other than eating stuffs that I can that he can't, watching series, playing computer and going out with friends. Eventually, I feel bored.

To sum it all, I am a whimper. Fine. I must keep quiet and do not disturb anyone by saying "I am bored".

I am not angry. I am not being not happy. I am just wondering. I admit what I did was wrong. Now I am seeing what I did by you. It was my fault for doing it. Not that I am regretting it which some of my friends know I do not regret things, I am just realising that how wrong was I and why on earth I do that.

Right now, I can think for what you will feel, about the consequences and tolerate eventhough both of us wrong or I am wrong or you are wrong. Everything I want to tell, it did not mean by scolding. I just don't want to be rude to you. I just don't want to scold you or shout at you or scream at you. I just don't want to show my anger to you. Nobody has this from me except you. You never say sorry, I don't really mind. It's just that I don't feel good everytime I keep saying sorry eventhough I am not wrong. Not blaming you though and not saying you are wrong too. I know I am not suppose to think about all these stuffs but I have been keeping it to myself. I think for your feelings, but do you think about how I would feel too? Even some stuffs I never mention and you never mention and I know it is not what we want it to happen or didn't know it is like that, we just keep it and we never tell.

Asking myself not to think, don't simply think. When I go to bed, it is hard for me to sleep nowadays. Keep thinking about us. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep. Sometimes I smile to sleep. I haven't been sleeping well these days. I find it so hard to sleep. I am tired. I even secretly drink alcohol to cool myself which is a bad thing to do. I can't help it. I want to stop doing all this. I don't want to do something that will spoil my life, my health, my mind, my everything.

I am missing you every single day. I know I will be there soon to see you, to touch you, to feel you, but I have no idea why am I suffering missing you. It has been almost 2 months since you left and I am not used to it yet. Why? WHY??!!! Can you please tell me why? Closing my eyes trying not to think. Yes I did it. But, my tears roll down for I do not know why. *exhale* aahhhh

I don't know what to do right now. I have nothing in my mind but you. I want to ignore about all these. Trying so hard to. Trying as hard as I can....

1stly..

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!!!

TO MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND!!!! Hehe :D sayang sayang :P

------2ndly-------

I've finally made my decision. The FINAL decision. Taylors' College, MUFY programme in Melbourne. Not USFP anymore. Goodbye Sydney...*sobs* But, it is a better choice. And my brother doesn't allow me to stay with him -.-' Cause of his laziness, I cannot stay with him. FINE~~Wait till I turn 18 then I shall move out!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait to turn 18. FREEDOM!! in Australia. LOL