S.T.O.P.T.A.L.K.I.N.G

Just SSSSSTTTTTTTTTOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPP talking. I will appreciate it. I already said I dont want to think about this now and you still continue talking about this. I dont want to add another matter to worry about in my brain! I'm already so pissed off already. Don't have to make me more pissed!!!!!!

I.A.M.A.S.P.O.I.L.T.K.I.D.

Sometimes I just do not understand what is wrong with them. I tried making things easier, better, more perfect, but in the end, nobody wants to follow it. And when I followed what they want and I screwed it up, I get scolded by them. It is not like I never told them my better idea that will not make a big fuss. I did told you all that I wanted that because it is better and blablabla and did you all listen???? I've said before if I blow it, DON'T find me and scold me. But what happened? I got scolded for the thing when I blew it. What is the point? Isn't it better if you all just let me have that thing before hand and I can even save your money? What is making so hard for you to say YES? Not like you spent very little before this. Getting that a little extra is not comparable than what you got. You spent over the limit but I won't. You may say I am a spoilt kid trying to use dad's money like water. You may say I am getting worse. You may say I am carefree. You may say I am rebellious. You may say I am a pest. I DON'T CARE.

I just plan a better thing for me. IS IT WRONG??????????????????? I just plan a better thing that makes everyone's life easier. IS IT WRONG????????? Even if I have no stress from my work, you all give me stress!!!!! Making so much fuss that I do not even want to have!! Since when will I have any suggestions made by myself??? I have grown up!!!! At least I am not as bad tempered as you! At least I am more tolerate than you! I look like I don't know how to control but I DO KNOW. Sometimes, not all things can be shown from me that I can do. Not like you know me well. None of you know me well AT ALL. Even when you all say you know me very well, I don't think so. You all never try to know me. What the hell? Just dump me aside then !!!

I did not get what I wanted since years ago from you all and that is so important for a kid. Without it, the kid goes hey-wire. And that kid is me. And the thing I have always wanted is happiness. Don't you all realize how important your role is? I learn so many things by myself. I experienced so many things cause of you all. And I am just trying to make things right but NOBODY ever listen to this girl's voice because you all treat me as a kid that knows nothing and invisible!!!!!!!!! Ever thought what I will feel?? You ask me the same question but do you ever though what I will feel for years??????????????????????????????

I AM DONE WITH ALL OF YOUR DEEDS. LET ME MAKE ME DECISIONS!!!! AT LEAST SOME OF IT!!!!!

Life I am Having Now

When is winter going to be over? I'm craving for September BADLY. Firstly, I will turn 18 in September - like finally. Then it will be spring! No more winter!! For the year :D Which means jogging freely without worrying I will faint or die of coldness halfway.

Actually, my life here isn't that bad. Stressful in a way, fun in a lot of ways HAHAHA Had a lot of fun with my friends lately. I'm glad I met such people like them (music-mates). I feel happy around them, less stress. Before I come to Melbourne, I was so worried I will not meet any nice people or I will be a LONER here. But hey, you'll never know. NEver keep yourself in a cage and I am sure you won't feel lonely at all. Sometimes you will feel lonely, it's fun to be lonely over here in a certain period of the day. You can't expect to walk everywhere with a friend here. Nobody does that. Not nobody, more like not many.

Maybe some of them in the college or whoever will think that I'm such a bitch cause I am always with guys. Honestly, I have more guy friends and girl friends. The closest friends I have in college are all in music class. I don't see my girl friends often. But, that doesn't mean that I don't have girl friends just because you all never see me walking with girls -.-' Girls in my classes like to stare at me in a super weird way that does not make me feel easy at all. How do you expect me to be friends with you all? At least the guys are more friendly. Just because I am a chinese girl NOT from China and does not speak good chinese you all have to stare at me one kind right? I am from MALAYSIA. Not CHINA. BIGGIE DIFFERENCE HERE HELLO???

At least I have fun with my friends in a GOOD way. Not clubbing :P See..guai kia HAHAHA

I found that my college has a lot of Vietnamese. Now I have more Vietnamese friends. Hard to communicate as their accent is..................... hardly understandable. LOL But, at least they are all nice people right? And some of the girls really cute ! (Not the guys..none of them are handsome -.-' except my music lecturer and that guy :D )

Right....I forgot what I want to say. Nevermind. Lets jump to other point.
Technology...................................................................iPhone......
I just did something WRONG and TERRIBLE to my housemate's new iPhone 4. LOL but we managed to reset and erase every single thing! HAHA Lets wait for Tian Hua to do everything all over AGAIN. I'm a total dumbo in this iPhone Apple stuffs. Well, at least I know how to handle Sony Ericsson phones MUAHAHAAHAH Still smart anyway :P

Okie dokie..Tests coming soon..HOlidays SOON!!!! YESSS!!!!!! Concert coming soon....nooooooooooooooooooooooo
Have been busy practicing piano and studying. Lack of food!!! Have not been eating well this 2 days :( huhuhu Where can I find time to study and eat and practice?? HOW????!!!!! Never felt this stress before..Now I know.. Terrible.. Horrible.. Vegetable...........

TestsssSSS

It's such a horrible thing to have a test every SINGLE week for 3 different subjects. Each one a week!!! I had my advanced maths and mod maths. NOT GOOD ! Others could score even higher, even full marks by skipping classes, late for classes, sleeping in classes ! And me????? I'm so fucking stupid compared to them. I felt so freaking hopeless. Made me feel more stress. Even for my maths test. I have never been so stressful for exams. Especially TEST. What have I become I wonder. Physics, fuck all of those questions. I never expect I will get bad result. Hell yes I failed!! -.-' For the college, it is a fail if you are under 50% - BAD RECORD.

Haih... Nevermind..I have more tests to come. I just got to put more oil into my brain since my brain has rust for 7 months.

Somebody to Love

Maybe some of you out there will think "Glee??" when you guys see the title but I'm not gonna talk about Glee as I never watch it before. The song is just in my head so I have nothing else to put as my title.

So, yeah!!! I'm still alive!! After 2 weeks in college! Yeah!!! -.-'

Well, it is not THAT bad but it is still BAD. Although my days are getting better in classes and blah blah blah. Met quite a lot of people and had fun talking and correcting each languages. Yea man. CORRECTing EACH languageS. Most of my friends are from China and their english aren't that good but we are okay as my mandarin sucks too so we are all equal. We help each other you see? Aawww such a wonderful people. It's hard though to interpret what they are trying to tell me in English. I will have to stare at a spot and think REAAAALLLLLLLYYYYYY hard to get the point. And I will go "YEA YEA YEA" or "Dui dui dui (means correct in mandarin) " or "Wo dong / ming bai (means understand in mandarin) " Then, we laugh and said okay. Hmm....... what a conversation~ It's not that I am laughing at them or look down on them, I am just SHARING my conversations with the China people :)

It's getting seriously cold over here. I'm suppose to shower but I am here writing my blog. Why? Cause, I feel like it. And Why?? Cause, hmm I dont know how to put in words.

Music class is very very fun. Sometimes. I bet most of you dont know I am singing in the choir?? Soprano??? HAHAHAHAHAH Yes I am in the choir singing soprano. Very not good. I know. Maybe some of you will go "Whaat??????????? Seriously??? Tang FOng???? Singing???? Soprano????? HUhhh????????????? That doesnt make any sense!!!"
What the hell, I am in the soprano which I dont like AT ALL!!! The highest key I can reach is D but now you want me to hit the note E and F??????? OH MY GOSH! This is crazy!! No wonder my throat is feeling so itchy now. But anyway, it's fun! It will be more fun when we get to see Mr. Smith does his funny face to reach the high note and the way he stamp his feet, say oh my god with his hand covering his mouth, doing some magic fingers. Obviously nobody laughs out loud, we talk after the class and we were like "Did you see how he react just now?? Its so funny like how he goes "AH!!NO!!" you know??" Bad students talk about teacher. Not good.

I dont want to talk about other subjects. THey are just BORING except my Eng and Maths teacher. Oh yea~ My maths teacher is soooooooooo funny. He always try to make fun of his OWN teaching just to attract our attention. He's way too fun. And my eng teacher, he is always saying "Aiyah!" and he is Ang moh! Very surprising for us when he said aiyah. Its really amazing when you see ang moh tries to speak our language / accent.

Conclusion, nice~~~ Thats all I can say about my college. They are full of fun :) but of course, gotto study right? Hmmmm

Go Go Go Go!! *encouraging myself*

Differences of Australia and Malaysia

Okay yea. I'm in Australia (OZ). Melbourne to be exact. And I'm going to write out some obvious differences between Melbourne and Taiping.

Melbourne, Australia

1. You can wear snow cap, hat, caps, hoodies, 3 layers of clothes, boots, scarfs, leggings, people will not stare at you and say you're crazy.
2. The toilet is so clean and dry that you can even pick the tissue that is on the floor and it does not stink. AT ALL.
3. You can wear as sexy as you want and people will not stare at you.
4. You can jog whenever and wherever you want without worrying much about people grabbing you and rape you.
5. You can put your handbags on the floor when you are at the restaurant because nobody's going to take it.
6. You can put your bicycles anywhere you want but the chances of getting stolen is less.
7. You don't have to worry about eating or walking alone like an emo kid. People will not stare.
8. When you are at shops or restaurants, even if you are looking only, the workers will ask "Hello how are you? Need any help?" with a smile :)

Taiping, Malaysia

1. If you wear snow cap, hat, caps, hoodies, at least 2 layers of clothes, boots, scarfs, leggings, people will stare at you and say you're insane. Panas la dei..
2. The toilet is so dirty and wet and stinky that your pee doesn't even want to flow out.
3. You can wear as sexy as you want but you will be raped a second after you step out of your house.
4. You can jog and run and walk whenever wherever you want with people following you at the back grabbing you or rape you or kill you.
5. You can put you handbags on the floor. Which means you are giving your stuffs to strange people for FREE.
6. You cannot put your bicycles wherever you want or else it will go missing the minute you walk away.
7. You will have to worry about people staring at you when you are eating or walking alone like an emo kid. People say you have mental problem.
8. When you are at shops or restaurants, nobody greets you eventhough you ask for a service.

So, these are some of the differences that I have in my mind for now. Will add it when it comes into my mind.

Well, Melbourne, so far so good except for my tummy. Tummy isn't feeling good for 3 days already. Not good. NOT good :( I don't even know whether I am hungry or not. Even if I am hungry, my tummy does not want to eat. *cry*

Will update my blog sooner or later :) Goody night !

S-P-I-D-E-R

I am a human bigger than any spiders on earth - obviously - but I am afraid of them as I have bad experience with them before this. So, whenever I see one, no matter what size are they in, I will RUN and scream PAPA!!!! or I will stare at it and think what I should do and I will grab any solid stuffs or tissue and PIAK!!! them.

Not gonna talk about this but I am gonna boast about :

I KILLED A SPIDER WITH MY OWN BARE HAND!!!!!!!

Damn! I am so proud of myself! Actually, it wasn't an intention to kill it with BARE hand without any "weapons" with me. I was in the car and its parked perfectly fine in the porch. And, I saw an insect on my window - never thought it is a spider - so I just PIAK!! the insect. Then, when I look at my palm and saw the insect I went SPIDER!!!!!! Then I quickly rub my hand with a cloth. Flashback, "Did I just kill a spider with my hand?????"

YEAH!!! I DID!!! *ego face* Brothers! Papa! Look! I am so daring!!!

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKKA So happy~ But of course, I won't do that anymore. heh :)

ps : its actually a very small tiny miny spider. lol